Why is it that you truly never realise what a good thing you had with someone (even if it is just simply a friendship) until it is gone?  It is probably the most over-used sayings in the world, but it is also probably the truest (is that even a word?) saying in the world.

When i look back at my life, even though it is relatively short (a whole 19 yrs) i can see so many oppourtunities where i missed out (sometimes through no factors that i could control) on some things that i either would have liked to do/see/hear/experience.  The one that has affected me the most in this past week... is one of Love.

At the age of 16... i thought i was in love... i was SO wrong.  A mere 3 years later and i know that i was in love at 16, but not with the person i thought.  I had a boyfriend at the time, my first.  But it wasn't he had captured my heart.  It was my best friend. 

He was (and still is) tall, dark, handsome and very, very mysterious.  Although we had been solid friends since yr7, i can still honestly say i don't know hime as well as what i would like.  He had the type of eyes, that were windows to his soul, yet he always had shutters down.  You would always look into them and think to yourself "what are you thinking?"  I guess i would say that i have always had a ccrush on him.  But as the years grew on, high school ended and so did our friendship.  Things are weird now.  We don't talk when we see each other.  There are no hugs.  No laughing.  Its like something/someone died...

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